i don't even want to look to see when i last post was.  i do remmeber telling my mother that no matter how hard sh tried to get me to close my accout, i would still keep it open even through college.  stubbor bitch i am... anyway.  i don'thave anythign to write really.. i mean, i could just randomly post updates:
 - ryan and i broke up a few monthes ago...like october.
 - i started dating m y manager from work, mike.
 - things got kinda serious, so i found another job.
 - i no longerserve tables (woot) but am not making enough money, so i might go back to that.
 - mike and i are looking for a place together.  even thought him and i ahave only been seeing each other for 9 monthes, i feel really good about this. 
 - ryan is getting married in january (right, we'll see... he can't commit to anything.)
 - seriously tho, no hard feelings about that, we're both happy in our lives. c'est la vie.
 - i am TOTALLY stressing over the next 2 months.
 - I'm thinking about joining a coven, and am slowl but surely realing not what i DO want, but what I DON'T.  Lots of crazies out there.  but I didn't need to tell you that.
 - I'm crrently at th dance studio,   listening to irish music. (it gets kinda annoying after 2 hours.)
 -after i moved out of ryan's house, i stayed with mike for a month before finind my own place on ft. lauderdale beach.  it's nice, but i lived my dream long enough, i need to find something more realistic, and closer to home.  wow, i hate being an adult. 
- not gonna lie, i'm pretty scared about moving in with mike.  i'm scared that we're gonna end up fighting all the time, and it will be a mistake, and we're going to come out of this hating each other.  I told him that, and he said, "well, if we're going to come out of this hating each other, then it was going to happen anyway, so we might as well not prolong the inevitable."  the other day he made me feel better about it, because he pretty much told me that i wasn't in this alone, which is something that would have been nice to hear last time i was getting ready to move in with someone. ((grrr..... i will not say your name.))
 - I listen to moms talk about how awesome their daughters are in dance, and how they have been dancing for soooo long. (by so long, i mean, they have been alive less time than i have been dancing.)  I've been dancing for the past 17 years... most of thes kids are like 12 or younger.  blaa....
 - I feel that sometimes, i haven't grown at all... I'm still a little girl inside.  this is both good and bad.
 - I'm getting tattooed tomorrow by PL at Rockabilly tattoo.  PL is really good.  he's one of the better in south florida.  like every one knows his work and who he is.  plus, he's a super nice guy and talks to you while he's tattooing you. I'm getting a tree on my rib cage. :)

I"m tired of this.  Later. :)

I work with a guy named Michael who teaches salsa at LetZ Dance Academy.  They also teach bellydance.  We often have dance related conversations.  He asked me the origin of the Zaghareet (the LI LI LI LI LI Li LI LI LI!!!! sound one makes when they like a bellydancer.)  I figured I should know in case one of my students asks me. I fould this article about the propper way and the ediquite related to it... still looking for the acctual "origin". Enjoy:

One More Reason You Should Be Bellydancing Right Now

I thought of a another reason you should be bellydancing. It’s the zaghareet…it’s this funny ululation bellydancers make when they want to cheer for something. Let me tell you how to do it, in case you are ever watching a bellydance performance and you hear all these people making this crazy noise and you wonder what that’s all about. Okay, first, just go “Loo loo loo loo loo loo loo!” in your normal voice. If you’re doing this at your desk in your office, do so quietly because you don’t want people thinking you’re some sort of howler monkey. “Loo loo loo loo loo loo loo loo!” Got it? See how your tongue touches the backside of your front teeth? That’s important. Practice that until you get it right. It’s not hard, I know you can do it.

Okay, now that you’ve got “Loo loo loo loo loo loo loo loo!” down, speed it up and do it at a higher pitch, or note, or whatever. You should open your mouth a little more to do this…but you know, still keep it down in case the other forklift operators are trying to concentrate. Now the sound you are making should sound more like “Luhluhluhluhluhluhluhluhluh!” Isn’t this fun? “Luhluhluhluhluhluhluhluhluhluh!” Remember it has to be high pitched and you might want to add a big “Ahhhh!” in the beginning so really it should sound like “Ahhhhhluluhluhluhluhluhluhluhluh!” Okay, and this is important, you need to cover your mouth when you do this because otherwise (you may have noticed this already if you have a mirror by your desk or the docks or the caboose or wherever you work) it looks really, really dirty. Now, obviously, if you just smack your hand over your mouth no one is going to be able to hear you going “Ahhhhhluluhluhluhluhluhluhluhluh!” and that will defeat the whole point and your co-workers are going to think you’re all weird for no reason at all. So what you do is flatten your right hand and stick it over your top lip horizontally and this not only makes the whole thing a lot less pornographic but also makes a little echo chamber to make the zaghareet go further, which the bellydancers will appreciate very much.

So now that you’ve got ululation down, you can also spice up your vocal accompaniments with a couple of other sounds. If you’re dancing in chorus formation and you see the girls who are out in front do something cool, you can go “Aowa!” (It’s pronounced “Aay-oh WA!”) This means something like “You go!” in Arabic, supposedly, but I think dancers just say it because it’s sort of cute. Aowa! You can say it in a couple of tones of voice for maximum effect; either really cute and perky which is more of a “Yay!” feel or more drawn out, like you’re really impressed, like “Aaaayyy-ooohhhhh-waaaaaaaahhhhh” which is more like saying “Damn, girl! You good!” Also you can go “Ya la!” or “Ya habibi!” at any point while people are dancing, again just to show appreciation. You probably should wait until someone does something pretty impressive, like a cool backbend or a crazy full-body shimmy or something like that. Don’t just do it every time someone does a hip circle or something because not only will you lose your voice before the night is through but you will also annoy the dancers. Ululating is a delicate thing. You have to use it appropriately.

Oh, and if a dancer does something really undulative and snaky with her hips or arms or something, you can hiss at her. In a good way. Just go “Tss tsss tsss tsss ssssssssss!” As if you’re some sort of asp or something. That is lots of fun. The dancers, whether you are dancing with them or just watching them, will love it. If you’re the one dancing, don’t forget to do little yells from time to time. I don’t do this much myself unless I’m leading a move that has a vocal cue but that’s mostly because I have to concentrate so hard on the actual moves that I can’t do much embellishment. It’s very cool when dancers get so into what they’re dancing and are having such a good time that they just let loose with “Ayyyyy yooop!” or whatever. Note that this is what tribal dancers do; I have no idea if any of this is appropriate for cabaret dancers. You will just have to take your chances.

i have an interview to be a tribal teacher at a new studio that is opening up.  keep me in your thoughts.  :) wish me luck.  also, i've changed my major to dance education.  yay!!